Other than the fact that I’m a happy camper today? Yeah, I had to add that quantifier because tomorrow is another day.
Draft six, third complete revision, is in the hands of three people. They’re busy, shit happens, haven’t heard a word out of any of them about it (Feed me Seymour) except one who is a writer herself and on a deadline. She’ll get to it, I know, and so will everyone else. But… my shoulders proceeded to bunch up and a headache set in. Jeebus. I was nervous for like two days.
I’m not quite sure when, little by little, my shoulders began to lose the knots, but I started noticing it Sunday. I realized… I know where the weaknesses are – “ing” is the Devil, I know some of the things that need to be fixed – like the ending paragraphs that I’ve come to hate. If I start stressing over three people having it, then what’s it gonna be like the day – gods willing – that it goes to print? I’ll be puking, that’s what, but there’s no point in doing so now. Some of it’s pretty graphic, will they like it? Hate it? Curse me to my grave? Turn up their noses? Well, plenty of readers might feel that way, but there will be those who don’t. What’re they gonna’ say that’ll shock me? Nothing.
They’ll like it, or they won’t. I can’t control that. It sucks as a product, or it doesn’t. If it does, I can fix that.
*boom* There it is. The realization was liberating, and a lot less painful on my shoulders.
Then I came across a link on Facebook to this chick right here. Urban Fantasy Writer – Leigh Evans. Finally! Someone who writes UF and not romance. (No, I’m not knocking romance, but I seem to know an ass ton of romance writers of various flavors and finding a blog for someone who does UF was like the clouds parting and angels singing) I spent hours reading every single post on her blog. I didn’t miss a word. I was caught because, like me, she started a blog to chronicle her journey to publication. I snickered because she still puts herself through everything I put myself through now, and she’s got an agent and is contracted with St. Martin’s. Yep. She’s made “The Show”, and she’s still circling Writer’s Hell.
What I’m going through now won’t change if I manage to catch that brass ring. It was just what I needed to see.
I spent many, many a year writing and never submitting anything, anywhere, but in that time I developed worlds in excruciating detail. I have a lot of material to work with in future books in the series. Hmm, the more I read my MS, the less I’m convinced it’ll be commercially viable as it sits, but … I’m still going to write those books in a series and I’m happy about it, and, for the moment, not so stressed out as I’ve let myself become over the last year.
And that is the huge, honkin’ deal.
So, read Leigh’s book. It releases the day after Christmas. I know I will.