Notice I said ‘red’. You will know what the word is; don’t make me type it.
On my about page you will find me referring to my “ridiculous combination accent of North Carolina Sandhills and Georgia Red Clay drawls.” People that don’t know me very well confuse my current accent with something closer to Louisiana born and bred, and I totally understand why–the whole New Orleans thing and the fact that I have, over the years, worked very hard to curb that twangy bitch down and make it sound like something it’s not.
When I first arrived in Georgia I was five years old and I’d spent most of the first five years of my life on a farm with pretty much nothing.
Lemme tell you a few things about that farm in North Carolina.
The house was so old it had no bathroom at all. Seriously, there was physically no bathroom. Which meant no toilet, obviously, but also no bathtub/shower/sink. The kitchen had no plumbing whatsoever despite having a full size kitchen sink (My gramma said she wanted a damned sink. She shoved it into the hole she cut in the counter, plugged the hole and used it). We had a well, one of those with a crank and a bucket. My cousin, one year younger, and I bathed in a kiddie pool beside the well (*BRR* because that water was COLD) in the summer. I’ll admit I don’t remember what the hell we did in the winter besides freeze because we had oil for heat and it was a creaky old farmhouse. Yeah, we had electricity (don’t get all crazy). If we needed to go to the bathroom, we were screwed, winter or summer… and I’ll leave it at that. You’re welcome.
\scene – pertinent to this blog post
Coworker comes in and asks, “Are you all right?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. Why?”
“You’re listening to country.”
*snort*
/scene – yes, I was writing this at work, and this will make sense soon
But what we did have was a working farm. I remember snapping beans and picking corn, and eating cornbread and buttermilk with a spoon out of a glass. There was a large chicken barn, not a coop–a barn, long and narrow. There were two ponds, an apple and apricot orchard, pigs, cows, guineas, and even crawfish in the stream along the road. At night I played with stacks of pennies or sewed doll clothes (yes, at that age) on the living room floor while the Grand Ol’ Opry or The Lawrence Welk Show played on the black and white tv. The tv had one channel and a crooked set of rabbit-ears.
We had the… weirdest neighbors about five/six miles down the road. They had one room of their house entirely filled with clothes, as in ceiling to floor in one huge pile, and they were even more broke than we were. Our place was a freaking mansion in comparison. Of course, their weirdness drew me and the kids and I became best friends. My cousin? We’d encourage him to pee on the electric fence. It worked. Once. I fed dead flies to my cousin because I could and he liked it. Ask him. Hey, we lived in the middle of nowhere. We were bored.
There was a one-eighth of a mile gravel driveway to get to the house. Redbugs lived in the grass, so I was told not to pick the Queen Anne’s Lace that grew wild along the edges of the drive lest I get “‘et up.” There were lilac trees and a field of daffodils. (I later learned that my grandmother would buy a handful of bulbs every year and had planted that whole field herself.) Our farmhouse had some kind of siding that was almost like tar shingles, but it was embedded with tiny glittery stones that made it magical. Directly across the dirt road was an old two-story plantation house complete with the Gone With The Wind columns across the front. Mr. Marshall lived there and he was about as old as the house, I swear. (I feel blessed now that I was allowed to play among his giant oaks, because back then, faeries lived there.) We had peacocks that made the most fucked up noises in the middle of the night. We had legends of Bigfoot and ghosts in them there hills… and you can bet your ass I believed them. And I loved it.
Then I moved to Georgia with my mother.
Let me assure you that I’d seen a toilet before then, because we did have friends and family that had one, and I did live with my mother in a trailer, and an apartment in Charlotte, for a few months along the way. But still. That farmhouse was ninety-nine percent of what I knew. The only thing I really took to Georgia with me was a doll and my accent.
I still have the doll.
It was a bit of a culture shock to have a paved drivey-way (yes, that was on purpose) and roads with actual asphalt. Going to the grocery store (which in NC had been rare) no longer took an hour’s drive and we could wash and dry clothes at the house with our own machines instead of a tub and a washboard and a clothes line–or the occasional luxury of the laundromat near the grocery. And the tv? It had like six channels. It was the life of freaking luxury as far as my five-year-old mind was concerned.
I’d been here a few years when my elementary school had a car wash to raise funds for whatever because that’s what we do. That’s when it happened. My accent was still so thick I said warsh instead of wash. In front of a cute boy. Who called me on it. Imagine this–someone from Georgia, with that drawl of theirs, telling me I sounded like a dumb hick. That’s how thick my accent was.
From that minute forward, I was determined never to sound like a hick again. To never say anything with that twang again. To learn proper English. To fill my brain with whatever knowledge I could so I wouldn’t ever sound “dumb.” To never, ever, own up to being born and, mostly, raised in Bum-Fuck-Egypt, in the fucking *boondocks.
*payattention
With every visit back home my cousin would say I was turning more and more into a city mouse, as in the The Country Mouse and The City Mouse. We’d still ride dirt bikes and get into general no-good, and as we got older hide in the tobacco barn with friends and drink wine coolers, but I was no longer the same and it wasn’t just the loss of the accent. I knew it, and he certainly knew it. My cousin still lives up there, but I rarely see or speak to him anymore, even if he did walk me down the aisle at my wedding seven years ago. I feel his loss and the loss of that farm, I truly do, in many ways, no matter how often I’ve denied that I do.
My husband and I have a thing about the tv show The Voice. The other night Blake Shelton’s team got together and sang this song. ((Go listen. I’ll wait, ’cause I’ve forgotten how to embed videos into the blog. *eyeroll*))
Little Big Town ~ Boondocks
I feel no shame
I’m proud of where I came from
I was born and raised in the boondocks
One thing I know
No matter where I go
I keep my heart and soul in the boondocks
I fell in love with the song. I’m talking hardcore, play it over and over in love… and felt like such a hypocrite as I sat there singing along. Kinda like I felt when my co-worker walked in just a few ago and looked at me like I was nuts because I was listening to country music. He doesn’t know me any other way than how he knows me–not many people do, and none of that involves country music or a backwoods drawl. Sometimes, I let the old accent fly around the very few people with which I am the most comfortable. The rest, they get one I’ve honed so well.
So, here’s my confession:
The accent you hear now was once much, much worse. I can turn it on and off at will.
Truth is, I was born just down the road from 818 State Road 1546 in Pittsboro, North Carolina, in a little bitty doctor’s office that’s now a veterinary clinic.
True story.
Today, I’m owning it, and loving it: I was born and (mostly) raised in the boondocks.
And we will never mention this again, m’kay?
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